This is the first time I have found the strength to read all the wonderful stories about you and the tears of sadness are flowing but also tears of joy. You were a shining light my precious you made me smile so much your big bambi eyes and your drooly smile are etched in my mind every time I close my eyes. The night you went to the stars was the worst night of my life to think you were smiling and laughing and entertaining the other passengers on the bus minutes before and then a split second later a decision I will regret for the rest of my life changed everything forever. There is not a second that goes by I don't wish we got off at another stop or that you were behind me I see the sadness in your mummy and daddy's eyes and wish I could take it all away but I can't. You were like my own beautiful child and feel proud to have been part of your life and upbringing. My only hope is if I'm privileged enough to have a daughter of my own in the future that she is just like you because Billie you were perfect in every way maybe too perfect for this volatile world. Since the day you went to sleep forever it feels as though our lives have been filled with nothing but sadness and tragedy and it feels like it's never going to end but I can still find a smile and that's because my beautiful Angel I have you in my heart I feel you around me everyday and I see you in the faces of your beautiful big brother and little sister. I will continue to smile through the tears because I know that one day you will be smiling back at me. I love you with all my heart I'm so sorry xxxxxxxx